About Me

“I would always want to see myself in my comfort zone but as it is... Life would never let me. I should go out and experience things and learn from life’s lesson.”

 Says in the greeting card I had received last Christmas.

Actually, I don’t even remember how many times I had already received this letter with the same dedication and my thoughts start to ponder... Do I look cat which is prison? I think physically not, but emotionally, that’s the question.

I’m just a simple girl with a long and curly hair not as long as a mermaid but it touches my shoulder. I have a height not as tall as Venus Raj but it complimented my body. Have lips not beautiful as Angelina’s but it suit me and make me more beautiful than others. Many people described me as tall and fair girl.

In spite of those compliments and criticism I received from the people around me, still I am not happy and something is always missing. Still, I have an insecurities and fears I felt inside. That’s why every time I’d encounter new faces and someone I just put myself in a box which I had created imaginatively and stay in a corner, instead of making friends and having fun with them. It’s my nature. I am afraid to try new things, to discover new things and frighten to take risk because I believe, at the end, nothing changes, just waste of time.

I'm a disciple just happen to be a student

This is how I live for the last 15 years of my life.

But everything changes when Someone shows me how valuable I am. How precious and gorgeous I am to His eye. He shows me the purpose of my life and told me that I am not just a wall flower in a corner but a beautiful flower instead. He also taught me not to be afraid in taking risk and discovering things because at the end there’s a lesson I will learn. That, He will never forsake me in my weaknesses.

And now, as I continue living, I always make sure that every time I spent in what am I doing is worth it. I am not the same Michelle Octa who insecure and frighten to discover and try new things, I am now brave enough to try things and not afraid of rejections. I am no longer living in my comfort zone, I go out and experience things and learn from life’s lesson.